So we all have our own journey. There are a few things I am learning on mine lately.
1. I have lived the victim mentality too long.
2. Negative is boring.
3. Judgement is not attractive.
OK, so not rocket science discoveries when you break it down really. I have missed a lot of sleep (going on 5 years now) and my hubby works 2 jobs. I have struggled with depression a long time. Life hasn’t all suddenly come up roses, not by a long way. I literally just got a text from Unicef asking for money and that’s the best my weekend social life gets.
But it’s time to draw a line. It’s time to say enough to all that and rebrand me, my business and my life with positive, love and light. The more I focus on sharing healing oils, the more I reach out and say “what can I do to serve you today?” the more I am rewarded with the light that fills my life. And by light I mean people who are full of light and showing me I am on the right path. People who have reached out to reassure me that I am worth their time. Amazing people who inspire me and make me believe in the light within.
Victim mentality is a funny thing, we stop the light and laughter, as though it’s going to ruin our image. “I’m not going to get any sympathy for being happy.” What’s with that? Why the faarrk do I need sympathy or attention? Approval – we are so desperate for approval. I’m a grown adult with 2 kids. 2 kids who can drain the life from me or lift me to joy – why is it instinctive to go down?
I’m starting to think I have part of an answer. I was doing a meditation last week and was asked to focus on one thing I love about myself. Total silence…and I don’t mean the zen kind of blissed out meditative silence, I mean my mind went blank. My mind went: “Far out I can’t think of a single thing I like about me right now, how the heck did I get here..??”
Brene Brown found in her studies on shame and vulnerability that the difference between those who live wholehearted lives and those who do not – people living wholehearted lives believe they are worthy of love. They see their flaws and embrace life anyway. They step into vulnerability and allow themselves to be seen.
One of my favourite quotes:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
—-from A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson.
I have a message, and it’s not always a happy one. I talk about toxins and governments not giving a toss about our health. I talk about corrupt medical and pharmaceutical industries. But what am I trying to achieve?
I am trying to help people embrace natural remedies and a healthier life. I am trying to heal and serve so that people can see the power of what nature has to offer, without the price tags and side effects. But I want to lead with light, not boring lectures. People follow those who are on a clear path.
So, here I am, totally laying it out there:
I pledge to be grateful and embrace the joy and light, because playing small does not serve.
I will serve instead of judge; guide gently those who are open; and wait patiently for those who are not.
I will be vulnerable. I don’t have to like it, but I have to figure out how to let myself be seen to live a full, wholehearted life. I figure it’s worth it.
I will aspire to be someone I like, and like someone who inspires me.
I will have faith in the journey. This path has been painful; but also rewarding, amazing, awe-inpsiring and will continue to be so, if I only have faith.
I am enough. I am worthy. I am rebranding to positive and am open to receive the abundance of the universe. Love, light and laughter will be my gift to you and to myself.
~ with Infinite Love and Gratitude ~ Namaste.