You’ll probably see a lot of posts now about my journey. You’ll get sick of everything being titles “A Journey of…” but in the end, isn’t all of life a journey. I often say to my daughter – keep learning, all your life, otherwise what else is there to do? I’m not sure if that’s just me, the perpetual student, the Seeker, but it sounds right in my head…

The thing about healing emotionally – we’re always trying – aren’t we? We all have our scars. We work toward healing, either by forgetting or forgiving and letting go if we possibly can. So finding a start to a story of continual growth, healing, personal development..? That’s hard.

When you take off the first layer it takes you back to more layers and so the story often goes backward before you start to look forward…but still, I will try to begin.

I feel like it began with a meditation group I joined a few months back. With a meditation we did one Tuesday night not long ago. Sort of. I found the meditation group because I realised I was interested in emotional and energetic healing. I realised I was interested in healing people emotionally when I started using doTERRA essential oils and came to realise they were for more than just physical health support. So. Powerful.

Perhaps it started with an Essential Oil & Energy night I was doing – it was a real turning point. As I was setting up for the night I chose oils for the diffuser intuitively – I came up with Geranium (The Oil of Love and Trust) and Wild Orange (The Oil of Abundance and overcoming limiting beliefs). The most random combination. I had 2 people join my group. The first chose Geranium, the next Wild Orange…

Someone who came to one of my Oils & Energy nights told me about the Meditation group…

Isn’t the Universe amazing…

So this meditation night, it’s where I feel MY current healing journey began. During the meditation we were led down some stairs, under the ground to a room full of crystals. We were to look in a mirror and see ourselves. I looked and saw myself as a child and heard one word resonate in that room: “Shame”.

Needless to say I was pretty torn apart by the rawness of what I experienced that night. It set off an unbelieveable cascade of events that have all conspired to aid my emotional healing in the most intricate and unimaginable way. And this is the key to receiving from the universe – don’t worry about the how. How is going to be so much more amazing that anything you could imagine. Just be open to the miracles.

The first miracle (well after all those others that conspired to get me to the meditation group!): I had someone coming to help with my kids the following week – the first time in 5 years I could go for an appointment by myself. Without me telling anyone this, I was gifted 2 healings that week and given the contact details for a third.

The third was my kinesiologist, who is fast becoming a good friend as we take this magical ride together. She has the most incredible gifts and I am so grateful to her (I can share details for anyone – she’s in Brisbane, southside – just email me).

I have discovered buried treasures in my childhood that have put their hand up to finally be released. I have found emotional baggage I have carried for my great-great-grandmother, because I had faith in my ability to clear it this lifetime. I’m sure that sounds like hocus pocus to many of you but the thing that really blew me off my feet was that for my grandmother and great-great-grandmother and all my inherited issues – I am reliving the same stuff RIGHT NOW. I am FEELING the same burdens right here, right now. Even when the stuff I’m feeling feels out of place or context in my life – I finally realised I’m feeling it because I carry it for them and from them. Some of my wounds are theirs and I’m done with carrying this weight. I want to heal myself and gift the peace for them also, as much as I can.

At that first meditation night someone said to me “The shame is not yours.” I had no idea what they meant at the time. Now I know there were things that were done to me, there were things that I carried. I’m sure a psychologist reading this would say “good work on externalising all your issues”. I’ve just found someone else to blame, right? Maybe. I don’t think so. I haven’t been blaming anyone, I’ve been identifying what emotions have been buried in me and working to clear them so I can move forward. But if the other is true? Well hey, whatever works right?

It has been work too – I have been working on healing. I have been affirming myself. I have been changing the way I think, the way I react. I have been very focussed on change. On moving forward. Creative positivity. Setting goals, and then working on believing in them and in myself. It all takes work. I am learning a lot of new skills which I’ll soon share in another post, but life is a journey of continual learnings right? Why not..

 

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